A Little Reality

When I started this blog I promised myself that I wouldn't let it get negative. In other words, that I wouldn't let it become a place for me to whine and complain and be overly dramatic about everything. So I write some on here about how great and beautiful life is and all that kinda stuff. And I mean every word of it. But there are still times (like tonight) that I just get to feeling really scared about the future and what's going to happen with everything, and very alone.

I know I'm not the only person that ever feels like this, and I don't mean this to be a negative post. But it's the way I'm feeling right now, and maybe a little realism here and there isn't a bad thing.

However you want to look at it I guess the good news is that without down, there would be no up.

"I'll Believe in Anything"

There are some songs that I tend to listen to on repeat when I'm alone, just because I like them so much and I'm afraid if someone else didn't like them it would just sorta ruin the listening mood for me. Usually there's one aspect of the song that I really like, some set of lyrics or cool breakdown. Of all these, "I'll Believe in Anything" by Wolf Parade is quite possibly my favorite. I would encourage you to check out the video. I really love these lyrics:


"And I could take another hit for you
And I could take away the trips from you
And I could take away the salt from your eyes
Take away skin and salt in you
And I could give you my apologies
By handing over my neologies
And I could take away your shaky knees
And I could give you all the olive trees
And look at the trees
Look at my face
Look at a place far away from here"

Dunzo

One year at IU. Check.

It's been interesting. There will be a lot of time for reflection later. But right now, it's a beautiful day and I'm happy.

Second wind...hopefully

I've gotta say, as pissed as I am that I've been working on my paper since 3 yesterday afternoon with only a break for a couple hours...I just can't help to love all-nighters in some sick way. I've been pulling them for so long that they make me feel sorta nostalgic. And any chance to see the sun rise (or at least the sky brighten in today's case) can't be that bad.